Do you know what is hardest when losing your mate? Everything! Not only have I lost my mate of 53 years, I have lost my lifestyle and the ease of a long term relationship that fit like a pair of comfortable old house shoes that were broken in except for a rock that might find it's way into a shoe now and then and rub you the wrong way.
Now turning down a new road without familiarity is extremely exhausting and difficult task which takes time and energy to navigate. Many have gone down this same road before me and they reach out. I don't have the strength to reach out. Perhaps, in time, I will extend my hand and reach back, but for now, I rest, I ponder, I try to figure it out as I try to find my balance once again.
