I'm back!

I am back blogging after so many things have happened in my life. Since I last wrote a blog I believe I have gone to work at 3 other jobs other than the one I worked at for nearly 23 years; I learned so much from that place. I learned the nature of people who had mental illness, depression, substance abuse, and those who were born with birth defects plus many other issues; it was a lesson in life. I was 33 when I went to work there and 53 when I left there. Boy did I get an education during those years. I could write a book rather than a blog about those years, and someday, perhaps I will. During my blogging pause I have lost my mom to Alzheimer's and my dad to kidney disease. I lost my husband of 51 years to staph infection and my son-in-law to a drug overdose. I have moved twice from my home of 30 years and remarried. It has been a journey and I am traveling forward as I speak. I feel good to be back and have used writing as a way to stay sane through so many trials in my life. It keeps me interested in life and expels any unhappiness I might have chosen to have. Instead I am a Ponderer (I think I just made up a new word as it doesn't appear in the dictionary of this Blogger). Pondering is done now in a new environment but that's the good thing, you can ponder just about anywhere if you concentrate enough. I now have a wonderful back patio and deck to ponder away in the mornings with my loyal dog next to me and a cup of morning Java. We have a wonderful lake house in which to ponder as well. It is so quiet you can hear nature as it is meant to be, and see it too. Journals have been my source of strength, praying to Almighty God and having a little talk with Jesus frequently keep me sane. I am now retired, remarried, child free, and a fan of researching everything I don't know. We are in the midst of an election year and I must look up every scoop I hear about our current President to see why he invented the word "Fake News". I now see it's to cover his ass for all the rude things and unclear things he reports, then tries to withdraw by saying he never said them, when all you have to do is pull up the previous news reports to know truth. He still stands and denies. If he denies enough some people, a whole lot of people actually choose to believe him. What's this world coming to? I fear it's coming to an end at times.